I was walking in between buildings today at work and the snow was lightly falling. I always stare at the mountains when I walk outside. I don’t know if it’s because they’re close, huge, and mesmerizing, or if it’s because I’m trying to avoid awkward eye contact with other people. When I looked at them today, they weren’t there. A thick fog/ snow cloud covered them and I couldn’t see anything.
It was really weird. It was like I was just looking at a lot of sky. I’ve always lived where mountains are. Even in Taiwan I could find the mountains in the distance. I didn’t realize until today how much comfort I get out of having them surround me. I remember one morning while doing a service mission in Peru. I woke up and had no idea where we were, because we’d been on a train all night. I walked outside and once again there was fog everywhere! The sun came out and it started to clear. I looked to my right and this HUGE Mountain appeared out of nowhere. That same day we went to Machu Pichu and there was fog everywhere. It was so beautiful! I’m not a big fan of traveling, but they were great sights to see!
Later at work we were talking about peaks and valleys. We were talking about the influx of teachers and student workers. Once again it brought up the beautiful imagery. Most of my life I’ve lived around red hills/red rocks. People sing songs about mountains and hills all the time. In this regard, I guess I’ll always be a little bit country. They’re just not the same when you live in a City and the mountains are far off in the distance.
After my meeting at work I kept singing to myself the lyrics from the Next To Normal song “I Miss the Mountains.” The mother in this song is of course talking about emotional mountains. She’s talking about the highs and lows of life. It’s a moving song.
I wrote a song my freshmen year of college about a church activity where we went hiking to a really lame waterfall. There was this part where we had to climb up and down this rope and I was terrified! I was freaking out, and thought they might have to leave me there, because I couldn’t get down. Then these three guys in my ward lined up and helped all of the girls down. It made a huge impact on me. These guys helped me do something I couldn’t do myself. I don’t like to rely on other people, so I think this was a good lesson for me to learn. I don’t think those guys have any idea that they were even helping us that much and I don’t even remember their names. I don’t have a recording of me singing it, but I’ll leave the lyrics here for you.
I was nervous, I was scared
No one noticed, no one cared
And when it was my turn to try
I stepped back, I didn’t dare
I was shaking, felt the heat
But you didn’t miss a beat
You helped me concur all I know
And you swept me off my feet
You helped me climb higher
Reach my every desire
And when I finally reached the peak
It felt like I was on fire
I couldn’t be stopped
Now that I’d reached the top
You helped me overcome what I’d begun
You didn’t laugh you didn’t judge
I ran away, you held no grudge
And when I came back to face my fears
You hadn’t moved, you hadn’t budged
You took my hand
Said, “I understand.”
I didn’t know where to put my feet
So you showed me where to land
And when I couldn’t reach the end
You lifted me up again
And I knew that I could it